Thursday 17 May 2012

If I were to writer her a letter...

...which I'm not...

...this is probably what it would say:

Hi -----


It's been a while since we last spoke.  You're probably wondering why I'm writing to you after so long - that's understandable -  I'm not so sure of the reason myself.


Well, it may be because lately, Ive been thinking about you more than usual. I'm not sure why. You've even featured in some of my dreams.   It is strange that when you appear in my dreams, we're still a couple.


Strange but not surprising I guess, considering the half life-time we spent together.  You were my most precious and treasured alliance.  My only true alliance.  Ever. 

Others have come and gone, but none have quite matched up to you - not by a long way.


For a start, I trusted you, implicitly - something I haven't been able to do with anyone else since. Also, I was strongly attracted to you; an attraction that never diminished over the years.


Do you remember that weekend when you arrived unexpectedly? Three days of absolute bliss, and only we know why.

Oh, by the way, the other night as I walked to the Old Town, I saw an attractive, tall, blonde woman pushing a pram and I though it was you.  I stood frozen to the spot while my heart raced like a drum roll. Moments later, when I realised it wasn't you, I felt deeply disappointed.


But getting back to the reason why I'm writing; it is because I hear you are coming over soon, and I was wondering if we could meet up for a coffee and a chat. Or even a stroll to Praia Formosa.


I'd love to see you.


I know it may not be possible - desirable - appropriate - or even all three - but I need to ask you, anyway.  You know me, and how I always speak my mind.

Maybe you're still angry at me.  I hope not.


I also realise you've moved on, really moved on, and if, as expected, you don't reply, I will totally understand.


Yours

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9 comments:

  1. Oh. Half of me wants you to send her a letter now, and half of me thinks it's probably better left alone. I hope you're ok, and I hope it's not too long before you find some other trust, attraction and bliss.

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    1. Hi Sharon - thank you. I guess I have "sent" her the letter by posting it here - Life can be so complicated :)

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  2. How about writing her a letter that you would actually send her? Even if she has moved on, even if you have moved on, I know she would really appreciate knowing how you feel about her & felt about her once the dust has settled. After a relationship ends, you often wonder what was real and what was in your head. Long after the pain fades away, unanswered questions can still mess with you.

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    1. Hi Angeline - I believe the woman I refer to in this post occasionally reads my blog - I hope she does as I mean every word. We were together many years - she still has my surname :)

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  4. That's such a lovely letter Joe. When my marriage first broke up I wrote letters to everyone involved. Just a few weeks ago I opened the one to my ex wife and reread, and then destroyed it. It was just so inappropriate, that I couldn't see it's relavence. But the ones I wrote to my children I have kept. Why, I don't know.

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    1. Thanks Dicky. When the break up occurs, anger hurt and frustration cloud the real issues, hence the irrelevance of your old letter. Once the dust settles we get a clearer picture. :)

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  5. This is a lovely piece. Very tender, if you know what I mean.
    Does she know your blog exists? Does she read it?

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    1. Hi Kelly, not sure if she still reads it but know she has done before. Thank you :)

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